Monday, August 1, 2011

Suddenly life means so much

Whenever I stop to think about it, I realize just how crazy it is that I'm at where I am at. I mean, from my life in general right down to exactly where I physically am at this very second.

Never would I have ever guessed that right now I would be sitting in an LDS familys' house in the middle of a tiny farmtown in Idaho with my fiance downstairs. I don't think I ever really thought I'd be living somewhere other than California. Or that I'd be getting married at twenty years old. Or that I'd be a Mormon. 

I have no clue how I got here. It seems like I've had at least a half dozen life plans since I was 16 or so, but none of them worked out. And none of them were even remotely as crazy as this one. This current life plan never was really even a plan at all. Well, I did know I was going to marry Sterling since the day I met him, no joke. But I'm still amazed that my little declaration to myself last fall has amounted to this. The one plan that I thought was the least likely to ever go through was the only one that actually is. 

And I think the fact that this all is so crazy and unexpected is the exact reason why I have so much faith in it. Something so random and out-of-the-blue and unplanned fell together so perfectly, there is no doubt in my mind that it must just be meant to be. How else would this have happened? This is where I am supposed to be, and I'm with who I'm supposed to be with, and there is a greater power pulling this together because there is no way I would have found my way here on my own.

I set out on a narrow way, many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn't see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart, they were like northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true

That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent, just passing through
I'd like to have the time I lost, and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You've been there, you understand
It's all part of a grander plan that is coming true

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